Being Sick Sucks

So... Apparently I am the one with the weakest immune system in my family, although I think it is pretty obvious as I am the one getting sick the most. Yet again I was sick yesterday, down with fever and a pretty bad sore throat caused by more tonsil problems (hoorah!). I should have gotten them cut off a few years back.

I saw this coming too. I started feeling a little feverish during school hours and when I got home I just flopped on my bed and slept for two hours straight before I had to wake up to cook rice for dinner. When my parents got home I told them I was sick, but luckily enough for me I didn't have to go to the doctor's as my mom wanted me to take supplements instead of medicine and antibiotics.

One major downside of being sick was skipping school on the next day. The day I was absent just happened to be the day with physics, which is one of my worst subjects ever and I needed to do so much work on it. Heck, I couldn't even get anything done at home. I tried studying but my head was pounding too much whenever I started studying for SPM trials which was less than a week away.

That's not the end of it. I just learnt that tomorrow we'll be having a physical test, which requires us to do push-ups, sit-ups and a bunch of other things I just can't be doing now in this state. I'm just hoping I can be fitter tomorrow.

Puppy Love

I recently watched a tv show where they talked about confessing to your love. After watching that, I thought why not give it a go? Well, here goes nothing.

                                                                                                                              
Ah... Puppy love, one of the most desired things when you are in your teenage years as I am. Sometimes it can leave great memories in your life in the future when it works out but it can also leave regrets in your lives when it doesn't work out.

It all starts with having a crush on somebody, but it will still remain a crush unless you tell somebody that has the potential to spread the rumour to the whole school accidentally. Trust me when I tell you that if you want your crush to remain a crush don't tell anybody and I mean anybody. When the whole school knows it becomes oh so awkward between your crush and yourself.

Then you have to deal with jealousy which is probably the worst thing you have to experience when you have a crush on somebody regardless of gender haha. Just kidding. Anyways, when you see your crush talking to someone else you die a little inside.Okay okay I admit dying a little inside is maybe an overstatement, though jealousy is very very hard to deal with.

Then when you finally man up and decide to confess to your crush, the fear of rejection starts to kick in. You start thinking to yourself: what if he or she doesn't like me back? Wouldn't it be so awkward between us? I would still think it would be worth a go, but it takes a whole lot of guts to do so. All you need is that 30 seconds where you be brave enough and confess.

Taking a look back at what I wrote, I'm sorry this post is kind of disjointed... Well, till tomorrow!

Celebrity Status - Would You or Would You Not?

Well, this is new. Today I was just searching the web to find a random topic to write about and I came across this topic "Celebrity Status - Would You or Would You Not?". Interesting topic.

Hmm, I'm pretty sure all of us have wandered into that topic before right? I have to admit I have thought about life as a celebrity, all the bright lights shining down on me and the crowds going wild after a great performance. Wow, it sure would be fun to get recognised everywhere! Enjoying the popularity, being on shows especially variety shows... One can only dream of the things you do when you're famous, unless you already are famous.

Can you imagine how much is their income? I personally cannot imagine how much they make in a year. If you're a celebrity, you can be offered so many deals, like commercials, sponsorship deals, and many many more. BUT there are always downsides for everything (sighs).

As somebody who is into the Korean pop industry, I must say all the benefits above come with a price. Celebrities everywhere must feel so tired when they get home everyday if their schedules are packed everyday with television show recording, practicing and many other activities such as attending movie premiers and fan meetings. When I see some of them performing on stage, they literally look like fainting, and sometimes they do faint! Goodness knows how worn down their bodies are with their hectic schedules and messed up sleeping patterns.

Our everyday life is envied by celebrities as far as I know as they will most probably be recognised wherever they go to and how frustrating it is if you get mobbed by fans everywhere you go. I mean I don't personally know how it feels but I can imagine that happening. Besides that, their personal lives are always put under a microscope, like whenever they go out to have a meal with opposite gender friends sometimes the press captures the moments and instantly it becomes a scandal they have to deal with, so they have to always be careful whenever they go out anywhere.

I will personally choose to not be a celebrity (not like I ever will be one anyway), but I will ask you the same question: would you or would you not?

Benefits of Blogging?

As you all may have realised, I am trying to keep my blog posts going up daily up until my exams start, which would be in under two weeks' time. Well talk about pressure right?

As the title suggests, there are many benefits of blogging, one of them being improving your writing skills and it also serves as a platform for you to be creative. Go wild. The main reason I had to start blogging was because of my English teacher who wanted our whole class to post on blogs to improve our English. I can't lie, but I found it a total waste of time at the start, but now I am appreciating blogging as I can finally write (and torture all of you with my horrible English haha!). I am actually also planning to continue this blog when I grow up and see how far this takes me.

Besides that, you can also share bits of what happened in your life with other people and they might be interested in reading it, if not then you can just enjoy writing about your life and maybe look back at it when you are older and they can become memories for you. Who knows one day you might be reading from your blog and remember some old interesting story that happened to you, like putting your finger in an escalator just to experience how it feels like to do that, but that's not as if I did anything like that, ever.

Also remember, you need to dedicate time in your life to blog, so always keep that in mind when you start taking up blogging.

Rationality

Let's just say some things happened today which I would rather forget than remember for the rest of my life. All this came from one thing: a lack of patience and rationality.

This involved a mature adult threatening a student's life who wanted to stand up for his friend. I am not going to mention names, by the way. What surprises me the most about this is how the adult acted in this situation, yes the students were at fault but there was absolutely no need to go as far as threatening lives right? I mean even if you hate a person a lot, you still wouldn't go around threatening their lives. I'm sure all of you can relate to me here.

Next, the adult not only threatened the student's life but he also insulted his personality. I can personally vouch for the student as he is one of the most well behaved people and he was again, merely standing up for his own rights. I feel the adult should have had more rationality in before he actually says anything to anybody, as a human's tongue can be sharper than any sword.

I just hope the adult gets the punishment he deserves for saying such things.

Overly High Expectations and Hate of Losing

Regardless of what everyone around me say, I feel that I have an overly high expectation about things (certain things). To make things simple, I hope things turn out well and when they don't, I get really, really disappointed.

Just like last week, when the football team I supported lost to a team I was really expecting them to beat, I felt really really down and kind of mad when they lost. I know, I know, it's just a match right? I know that too, but this is a sport that has been in my life for 10 years already, and not to mention I'm a person who absolutely despises losing. Yes, I had placed so much hope in those things but I can't help it.

Being a person who hates losing, or a "kiasu" as us Asians call it, I can't stand it at all when my team or I lose anything at all. I try not to show it but it's part of me I can't ever change. I mean I try, but it's still kinda obvious I'm upset when I lose, and I end up ranting to whoever happens to be right beside me. Then again, it might also be caused by the temper I inherited from my father who is kind of a hothead as well.

Ah well, it can't be all bad that I possess these traits. (p.s. daily blogging!)

Comparing Two Characters! (woo)

I sure have been uploading a lot of literature recently! Well lets continue. Based on the novel "Step by Wicked Step" by Anne Fine, there are six main characters who each have their own different story. Claudia, Pixie, Richard, Colin, Robbo and Ralph although all are very distinct in their own way, I am going to be comparing two of the characters as I found that there are quite a few similarities among both of them.

The two characters I have decided to compare are Colin and Richard. Firstly, both of them lost their fathers, who were important and influential people in their lives. The loss of Richard's father meant that he would make the decision to leave home, and the loss of Colin's father meant that he would be left with no one to talk to at home, albeit the fact the Richard's father is dead and Colin's father isn't.

Besides their fathers, they also did not receive enough attention and love from their mothers. For Richard's case, his mother failed to defend and protect him when Reverend Coldstone treated him badly, and still married him when it was obvious Richard disliked him. For Colin's case, his mother did not realise he missed his father as she was too busy with her work. This caused his studies to deteriorate.

Both of them also decided to run away to make things work for them, but Richard ran away from home in hope to make everyone's lives pleasant, while Colin wants to solely find his father and he plans to leave once he makes enough money to do so. Richard realises his decision was not good as it led to both his sister's and his mother's death.

The two characters, Colin and Richard experienced many similarities in life, but made decisions based on different reasons. That was the comparison between the two characters, Richard and Colin from "Step By Wicked Step".

A Character I Look Up To

Based on the novel “Step by Wicked Step” by Anne Fine, there are many characters that I look up to, but one stood out the most, and that character is Claudia.

            One of the reasons I look up to Claudia is because she stands up for other people. At the start of her story, she could not accept the fact that her father had a new girlfriend, Stella after splitting with Claudia’s mother. She wasn’t really pleased with the fact that she had a new family member in her life. One day, her father brought his friends over to have a chat with Stella and him. Everybody was seemingly ignoring her on purpose, she knew that as she was eavesdropping. She felt that Stella did not deserve the treatment she was receiving. So she deliberately went and put on the green pyjamas Stella got her for her birthday and she showed it off to everyone there. The textual evidence being “Stella, these are the pyjamas you bought me. Aren’t they wonderful?” on page 47. Her relationship with Stella got better slowly.

            Besides, she is values her family relationship, especially when her parents act in a way that she feels is not good towards their family. Sometimes, she avoids being caught eavesdropping by switching her headphones up so loudly that they leaked, but did not put it in her ears properly so she could still hear her parents talk in the back. She also dislikes it when her parents call each other without using their real names, she's also not afraid of voicing her own opinion at the childish way her parents are acting. The textual evidence being “I hate it when they say that. ‘Your father...’ ‘Her mother...’ ‘Your daughter...’ As if, just because we’re all separated we don’t even remember one another’s names any longer!” on page 38.

            To conclude, I look up to Claudia as she is brave in standing up for other people and she values her family relationship very much.

YOLO

After watching a certain Korean drama named "My Spring Days", where the main female character died from her body rejecting the heart which was transplanted 5 years ago, which I still find amusing as to how on earth did she even survive that 5 years anyway? It is a story after all. The ending I wanted and needed was not given to me by the writers, instead it gave me a new perspective on life.

Life is precious no matter what other people say, from the moment the sperm penetrated the ovum to you being born. Watching this drama really made me understand the importance of living life to its fullest when you're alive, as the female character, Bom Yi really wanted to live her life to its fullest everyday since she got her heart transplant. She feels that she owes it to her donor to live that way.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that we need to undergo some serious surgery in order to appreciate life and everything we have right now. When I get the chance to read through the papers, I came across an incidents a few months ago, something about this girl suiciding as she felt she was wrongly blamed by a teacher for cheating in the exams. I know this is something to get upset about but come on, you have lived only a bit of your life, not knowing what's in store for you in the future and here you are, ending it. If the girl ever thought rationally, she wouldn't have suicided.

I think we should all appreciate life and enjoy it while it lasts, as it is not going to last forever. You only live once, YOLO.

Scared about not being Scared At All

Conflicting title right? Allow me to explain.

This, for one only applies to the exams. It all started when a bunch of us started talking about exams being a mere few days away. Somebody brought up being scared about not being scared about exams (might be me but I forgot). That's the thing, normally most of us would be at least mildly pressured or scared, but think about it: imagine not feeling anything on the eve of the exams.

Actually, I can relate to that feeling quite well. On the past few years, or even during the first term exams I felt that I am really unprepared even though I somewhat prepared more than I did now. This time, even though I am seriously underprepared I feel nothing, as though my nerves are made of steel or something. It's like I lost the motivation to study for the most important year of my secondary school life. I'm sure I am not the only one feeling this way.

To be fair, I am hoping that I will get a wake up call or a reality check somewhere down the road as I feel I will continue dwindling as I am currently and screw up my exams. Though at the same time, I hope I can recover from this and continue working towards the final exams in my secondary school life, SPM.

Ending

Well now, it has been a long time since I last posted something here again. I guess I really do not have anything to write about nowadays, my normal life is just basically getting up, washing up, going to school, coming back home, do homework. It is like a never ending cycle but then again, I thought to myself it is better than dying right?

I don't know why sometimes I just randomly think of the future, mostly before I sleep. Sometimes it doesn't affect me as much, at other times it just scares the life out of me. You gotta wonder how life after death is right? This persuaded me to do some random research just to kill time (instead of studying which I should be doing, yes I know), I started to look up near-death experiences on Google.

Most of the stories are identical in one way, they all experience their souls being sucked away from their bodies and a feeling of pleasure when they die. That made me wonder if that was really what would happen when we eventually die. Alright too much talk about death, moving on.

I, for one am a very random person and on one of the websites I was reading an article on, I saw an article published about how our sun will die and will our beloved Earth survive it. Bad news. To whoever might look at this article billions of years ahead, you all better get yourselves another planet for humans to live on, because the Earth would most probably be incinerated when the sun eventually dies.

I feel very sad knowing the beautiful planet we now live on will be gone along with the sun, which will become a dwarf star when it dies, but then again how would I know? Shame our exams don't include general knowledge about the solar system eh? If it did I could probably score an A already, haha. Till the next post.

Punctuality

This blog originated as an assignment by our teacher for our exam marks, and she emphasized on the deadlines when you are supposed to post up a post very much. But here I am, probably along with most of the class doing it at the last minute.

Today was supposed to be the deadline for our 7 blog posts, but I didn't really take the deadlines seriously and I procrastinated for very long. It left me with a bunch of work to do just one day before our exams. I'm pretty sure some of my classmates haven't completed all 7 posts yet, if they see this post I hope they post it soon as well.

Procrastination is punctuality's biggest enemy. With procrastination you can never be punctual, therefore I am trying to get rid of my bad habits to spread out my daily work load. Have a good night.

It's That Time of The Year Again

It is that time of the year again, the one thing all students hate in common, the Exams. Just the thought of it makes me afraid and annoyed. I once joked with my friend that the guy who invented exams shouldn't have done it, now I wonder how much of that was what I really intended.

By now, one day before exams, most people should already be quite prepared. I, on the other hand am not so prepared. I'm going into this test knowing that I need to prepare more for the coming exams which are 3 months away. Sounds long right? Wait till 3 months pass and you'll be asking "Where has all that time gone?".

With this I hope everybody can learn to appreciate time better and start preparing early for our crucial year ahead of us.

Valentines' Day and Chinese New Year

For couples around the world, it was an enjoyable Saturday, as February 14th also known as Valentines' Day, fell on a day where they don't need to work and study. Also, for all the single people in the world (like me) it was just a normal Saturday. From my opinion unless you're in a relationship, Valentines' Day is just another day for them.

Sure, they can go out with their friends but when they see couples having a great time together they might feel left out. For me though, I don't really celebrate Valentines', not yet at least, so it doesn't matter that much to me.

For all the Chinese in the world, last Thursday was a very special and important day as it was day 1 of Chinese New Year. It is the year of the Goat, so decorations for the celebration will  be revolving around the goat as the main theme this year.

Besides the dazzling decorations, the food is one thing I personally enjoy the most during Chinese New Year. This is the time of year for you to gain weight as you might be eating non-stop throughout the holidays. This made me feel very unhealthy and fat.

Another thing is receiving ang paos. As children, every year during Chinese New Year we receive "ang paos" from your married elders, like your parents or relatives who are married. So we end up going around visiting nearly everyone we know to chit chat or just have a great time together.

Have a great Chinese New Year!

Mighty December 19th

Well, who knew so many things happened on December 19th (aside from my birthday of course). Everything else couldn't quite catch my attention, except for one thing. Alexis Sanchez, world renown Chilean footballer who now plays for my favourite club Arsenal FC. One day I wanted to print his jersey number '17' on the back of my jersey for our futsal club, then I searched up his birthday just for fun.

Then something came up on the screen that made me sure of why I chose his number. We shared the same birthday (haha!). I wondered if it was that that made my decision, because he was and still is my idol from the footballing world, or it could be all just a coincidence. Enough of that, as another thing also happened on my birthday that was also quite interesting.

I'm sure many of you remember the Titanic, sinking on screen. The 3-and-a-half hour movie directed by James Cameron which became a blockbuster, was apparently on screen for the first time on December 19th. I can now go around telling that I sank the Titanic before I was even BORN. Nahh, not really possible now ain't it? But it still thrilled me that Titanic screened first on my birthday.

Besides that, the North Korean supreme leader Kim Jong-il died on my birthday. How I wish only good things happen on my birthday...

Short Person with a Short Temper

I don't know about you, but I'm short and I admit it. I never knew that short temper associated with short people as well, for me at least. Not to say I get angry most of the time, it's just that I get very easily annoyed with people.

The things that can tick me off you can't fit it on only one piece of paper, it's actually quite a lot. The only way to not get angry is to hold it all in, but that also isn't very good for you. So I just normally stay quiet and isolate myself to keep calm. I don't know what's the cause of me having short temper. Genes? I really don't know.

What I do know is I better get rid of this temper before I hurt anyone verbally, not physically as I would never do that to my friends and family.

Growing Up

I really cannot believe this. It's the last year in secondary school. It only seemed like yesterday I was just enrolling as a standard one kid. After many years, my friends and I have reached the final government exam, SPM. This exam to many of us is considered to be the defining exam for your future, thus stressing me out. Then there's also the prospect of having to achieve good co-curriculum marks as it may affect you getting into a college or a pre-University.

Like today, as the co-curricular activities start in my school, I felt sort of pressured to apply for a post in the societies that I am involved in. Luckily for me, I was able to get chosen as a secretary for my society. As I got the job, I realised that a secretary actually has to be able to do work, paperwork in general. The first day in the job and I already have at least 3 things on my schedule to do already. All of this is new to me, as I have not been all that active in co-curricular activities previously.

All in all, I hope I can do well in my job as a secretary.

2014, THE YEAR OF DISASTER

For many in Malaysia, this is a year to be forgotten. Tragedies of MH370 and MH17 has caused so many to be heartbroken. Then, recently a flood descended on the lands of the East Coast of Malaysia. This caused around more than a few 100 thousand victims to be affected. The Malaysians altogether helped the flood victims by donating everyday supplies. Not to be left behind, my family also just recently went to Tesco to buy some supplies to the flood victims, especially the babies. Although the amount of the supplies we got is way too insufficient to actually help, but I hope the baby supplies will help them get by their time of need. I sincerely hope they get their homes back up and have their old lives back.

Till later.